sunday: june 28th

i did an exercise recently as part of a larger 24-day meditation challenge, and this one specific exercise really made me think. the exercise involved me physically writing down the names of 50 (or more) people who played a part in getting to me to this point in my life, or added value to my life, this could've been in terms of career, emotions, or relationships. although at first-look it seems like a pretty pointless exercise, it had an additional level of depth, it also required that every time i note down a name, i had to actively recall exactly what value the person added to my life. it wasn't hard at all to get to 50 names, in fact it went over 50; and the more names i wrote down, the more names that popped up. 

aside from bringing back so many memories, it also made me think about people i haven't talked to in ages, and how much of a part they played in my growth, and made me think about this one very striking point: the most important people in my life fit into two groups:
- people who i talked to every day for a super long time. 
- people who i talk to once in four-five months. 

see, the first one isn't surprising, you talk to someone everyday for a very long time when you see that they mean something to you and the same is reciprocated. the second one surprised me ever so slightly because they meant so much to me even though our interactions were so limited. these wonderful people didn't let the infrequency of conversations be a negative thing, and this kind of relationship, i feel, demands special appreciation. 

some people around us (or even some of us), have the habit of equating the lack of daily conversations to lack of interest or care. while this may be true in some cases, it doesn't make sense to be equated if it's only true in some cases and not in other cases. when you start talking to someone, build a good relationship with them, and then you realise the conversations aren't as frequent, don't let it be a negative thing. catch up every few weeks or months, whichever is convenient and feels natural. 

the sheer amount of connection this kind of a bond shares is insane, because the bond is able to stay together even without the catalyst of daily conversations, so cherish them. i'm so insanely proud to say that i've made so many wonderful friends i don't talk to anymore, and in their hearts and in my heart, there is appreciation for each other. and it matters. 

carry around positive energy kids.