sunday: july 26th
very recently, i had to make a choice between breaking someone's trust and not. usually the choice would be to not break their trust. the trouble was that he so desperately wanted something from me i did not have the ability to give, but if i disclosed his need and desperation to someone else, i could get him what he wants, but that would be me taking a chance on his decision to trust me with the same for a 'could'. i ended up not breaking his trust and he ended up texting me a few days later saying 'there's no escape for me'. i couldn't gather the courage to respond. i'm not going to get into the details of the story but what i will get into are the thoughts that this renewed.
all of us are so insanely lucky. i'm going to take the liberty of assuming that all of you reading this have a roof to live under and food provided to you with no effort from your side. we have the privilege of consuming entertainment and finding peace in things like music, which still is a pleasure many can't afford to have. it's not a bad thing that you posses this privilege. it's absolutely wonderful and i'm so happy that all of us are lucky enough to live the lives we will. but you know what sucks? when we don't appreciate what we have. the only way we will, is when you put yourself in the shoes of others, or when we spend more than a fraction of a minute thinking of the lives of those around us you don't live like you. it's a whole other world. i preach about spirituality and mindfulness and being happy when all of this is a foreign concept to many around us.
this is an inescapable loop of inner-conflict. do what good you can, there's no way you'll find peace without doing it. i know it sounds like a selfish reason to do good, but try to find that bit in you that does something good for the sake of the person in front of you. it's a hard bit to find but it's there in every bit of us. we are born with goodness, kindness and happiness. we are born with it. the world around us makes us build walls and develop personalities on top of the baby inside you, till that pure innocent you is buried deep inside. find them.
we are the most empowered generation ever. past decades of being shackled to the whims of our ancestors has led to this wonderful time where we've broken free. do good for every community. spread the little bit of happiness. if you can't make the world a better place for everyone, make your world a heaven to be in for the people around you. there are always going to be naysayers, it's inevitable that out of the billion people on this planet, some turn out evil. the goal would be to get to a zero, but that's a long way ahead.
out of some beautiful miracle, we are the only (known) civilisation, do we really want to be remembered as one that fought against each other unendingly. the effort to spread goodness will not go unseen in history. we will be history one day. we will be a story until a day comes when the saplings we have sown today will no longer be able to tell if the stories are real or if we ever were.
there's just a very tiny journey to make from where most of us are, to living a life that's happy. and yet the reason most of us are not, is because we haven't sat in the car yet. just start the journey, live life. free yourself and others. recognise the societal constructs that took centuries to form and crush them in a second's thought. it's not a hard thing to do. to be truly free is when you know you're happy.
no storm can crush the lighthouse that was made for the storm.
